Showers, stresses, and such.

I am planning my own bridal shower. This isn't exactly how I expected things to happen, but it's what I'm forced to deal with. I'm actually happy to be doing it, but at the same time I don't know. Stefanie and Cori have been really helpful, and I love them for it. They have been doing as much as they can for both my shower and my wedding, and that's why they are my friends. I just wish everyone cared like they did. I feel like I give so much to my friends, and then when I need something in return, nobody cares enough to notice. One of my "bridesmaids" won't even return my calls, texts, or online messages. What am I supposed to think about that? It's pretty hurtful, especially since I have bent over backwards for her many times. Gosh, this is such a weird experience. I never thought in a MILLION YEARS that I would hate thinking about my wedding, but I do. I have been looking forward to this since I was a little girl, and now that it's crunch time, I feel like Erik and two of my four bridesmaids are the only ones that remotely give a damn. I've done everything in my power to make everybody happy but myself, and it's time to change that. Bleh guys.